Can you ever really erase history? Start at the beginning with no baggage? Start at the start - again?
I don't know.
My running buddy and his wife (whom have been married for over 40 years), they can start over. They can start a conversation and realize it's not going in the direction either of them intended. So, they start over. But, they don't "re-start". They just "start". Even in the same conversation. Stop. Start. When you re-start, you "disregard the previous statement".
But, can you really do that? Un-ring a bell? Not hear something that was spoken?
We all misspeak.
Say words we wish we could take back.
But, truly, can we undo it? I know we want too.
Tonight, I was at Duncan't hockey game. When I walk into the bathroom, there is a group of teenage girls standing there gossiping. One of the girls gives me a hug. We talk a bit about her boyfriend (they broke up), she's just there to watch Duncan's team..... Hmmm.....
I then go into a stall. I hear the girls talking. I hear "that's Duncan's mom". The conversation continues. I giggle. Then, I couldn't help my self. "I can still hear you". I couldn't resist. It got suddenly quiet.
Leaving the bathroom, they were all standing there. Pink in the cheeks. I just said "Hi ladies" and continued walking.
Peter Pan wants to try this. With me. I don't believe him. I look at his track record. I look at my track record.
This is impossible.
I receive the text, "Shouldn't we try?"
"How do we start over?" Erase the mistakes and not hold them as grudge?
I'm not sure.
I don't know if I know how. Although, I remember hearing the greatest form of forgiveness is to let it go.
I don't remember loving you.
So, then I receive a text from Peter Pan. My reply: "Who is this?".
"That cute blonde guy you met at a bar."
"Oh, I don't remember much about you."
"Trust me, you want to know me." Oh yeah? "Yeah". "So, do you like tomatoes?"