I haven't been going out. I haven't been seeing my friends. I've been in the "library". Although, for me, the Library isn't a healthy place to be. I do better out there in the world. Yes, maybe I needed to recharge, but I still need to be amongst the living. Not squirreled away at hockey games and on my couch.
Two weeks ago - the boys had hockey to attend on a Wednesday or Thursday night. I decided I was going to take off my yoga pants - actually put on slacks - well, at least leggings and go out while they were at practice.
I can do this. I have no problem going out by myself. I'm not there to "pick up" anyone. I just want to talk. I'm a friendly person.
I walk in to my favorite old restaurant - the manager comes over and gives me a hug. She had been a waitress at this same restaurant several years ago.
She remembered my name and commented on "I haven't seen you in forever". The truth is I recognized her immediately, but couldn't remember her name.
I walk to the bar and grab a seat next to two guys I knew from the club where I work out.
I left 2 hours later - I didn't pay for a thing. Someone else picked up my check.
The next week, I went back to meet some other friends. We got preferential treatment. A great table and a very fun time.
I'm not sure where I have been, but I'm back.